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Focus

I found this from Quora digest email and it is an eye-opener for me and a reminder to myself to keep on moving forward for progress. I must learn to do something that I like. If you love your work, it shouldn't feel like work.


Q: How did Elon Musk learn so much?

He once explained how he does it and his reasoning is very sound. It went something like this…. Elon how can you accomplish so much so fast? "Most people work 40 hours / week. I work 100 hours / week. That means what it takes a regular person 1 year, it takes me roughly 4 months to complete. Simply put I'm just working a lot more and learning at a much faster rate than my competition". ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I’m pretty sure that by “work”, he also means reading and thinking in the evenings.It’s alarming how much time we waste watching TV and doing other meaningless things to pass the time. I’ve got this university text-book here on cryptography, in the introduction …

Worthiness

Currently, I don't feel that I'm worthy of anything. Sometimes I wonder if I had made a bad decision in my life.When you are at the stage of your life where you live depending on someone else's money is so hurtful and painful.

For almost 2 years, I have been a stay at home mum. The feeling of unworthiness for almost 2 years is something that I must remember for the rest of my life. No money to eat, no money to pay for the car, 3 months default for insurance and lastly the help from others are not going to be forever. It is a lesson for me to never stop learning and upgrading myself.Despite everything is good, I must make myself a step ahead continuously.

Now, it feels like I have to start all over again from the beginning. Because to accept that my degree and working experience does not help me to get a good salary wise decent job is a painful truth that I have to fathom.

I did wish my life will be better but I soon realized that it will never get better. I knew that I had…

My Free Time or Loss Time

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It never occured to me that I will be a housewife for such a long time. Well, there's no one else to be blame but me. I don't know for how long I will still be stay at home mum, but I hope I can get the best of it. Because I still can't find it beneficial for me especially in terms of financial.

I don't know for how long I can cope with no income in my life.Nobody knows that deep down I'm lost and wasted.

I'm so lost.


HaPPy 2016

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We have come to a new year..2015 has been about my baby and wishing him the best life now and after.A year passed so fast and I will be like "I feel like that event just happened 6 months back". But actually it was a year ago. 2015 full of commitment, tight up and hopefully I have some break for myself this new year. But who knows, coz there are still a lot things to do. Plan, plan and plan...Let's rollout ! Hehe...

Happy 2016 =)



Happy Birthday

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to myself, happy birthday to me...as of now, no one sings me a birthday song..so I sing by myself..huhu..actually, since I was a teenager the celebration is only just a dinner with no gift.Haha..We don't really celebrate.I envy with people who always have balloons, cake and gift everytime on their birthday.Haha..perhaps its just not a pratice since my early teenager- on my side.
Anyway nobody cares..haha.The world keeps on spinning anyway.Just a day passing by. ☺ Cheers

The night is still young?

Yearning for excitement, yearning for something fun and new, yearning for a holiday..But no money.Haih..dont know when I can go on a long vacation...I wish i can go on a holiday somewhere I can just enjoy, have fun and care-free..I guess I have to celebrate in a small way by my own (in a discreet way) this year and who knows if it will be the same in the future. What you give you will get them in the future..People said happy people are the ones who make the best of what they had. But I couldn't help to longing and dream about this..Life has been hectic and I find it more hard to find a time for my own fun time..without any rush or schedule..
I need to sleep on time and wake up on time so that my day will be well spent. If not everything will be late..I know this is what a mother will have to bear with but I also have come to a realization that my life is boring..Ahaks. The end.

Quote for the future

"No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of worry can change the future."
- Saidina Umar bin Al-KhattabI have my utmost admiration towards one of Rasulullah Saw Sahabat. I love his principle in life and his bravery.That is why his quotes are so wise to me.