Friday, January 01, 2016

HaPPy 2016

We have come to a new year..2015 has been about my baby and wishing him the best life now and after.A year passed so fast and I will be like "I feel like that event just happened 6 months back". But actually it was a year ago. 2015 full of commitment, tight up and hopefully I have some break for myself this new year. But who knows, coz there are still a lot things to do. Plan, plan and plan...Let's rollout ! Hehe...

Happy 2016 =)

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Saturday, September 19, 2015

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to myself, happy birthday to of now, no one sings me a birthday I sing by myself..huhu..actually, since I was a teenager the celebration is only just a dinner with no gift.Haha..We don't really celebrate.I envy with people who always have balloons, cake and gift everytime on their birthday.Haha..perhaps its just not a pratice since my early teenager- on my side.
Anyway nobody cares..haha.The world keeps on spinning anyway.Just a day passing by. ☺ Cheers

Monday, September 14, 2015

The night is still young?

Yearning for excitement, yearning for something fun and new, yearning for a holiday..But no money.Haih..dont know when I can go on a long vacation...I wish i can go on a holiday somewhere I can just enjoy, have fun and care-free..I guess I have to celebrate in a small way by my own (in a discreet way) this year and who knows if it will be the same in the future. What you give you will get them in the future..People said happy people are the ones who make the best of what they had. But I couldn't help to longing and dream about this..Life has been hectic and I find it more hard to find a time for my own fun time..without any rush or schedule..
I need to sleep on time and wake up on time so that my day will be well spent. If not everything will be late..I know this is what a mother will have to bear with but I also have come to a realization that my life is boring..Ahaks. The end.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Quote for the future

"No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of worry can change the future."
- Saidina Umar bin Al-Khattab

I have my utmost admiration towards one of Rasulullah Saw Sahabat. I love his principle in life and his bravery.That is why his quotes are so wise to me.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Truth about people

I'm so sad today..I know this blog will not be read by anyone from my family. Even if it does, it will be way too long already..It is all out and clear as of today that none of my family members are good in comforting and motivating someone who is sad or has given up their hopes. I know I have not write here for a long time.Well, this time I have no one to talk to..Since it involves internal issue and family member, I just want to write here.. Nobody understands that I am a person who likes to keep it to myself and I will break down teruk2 when I finally give up..When I say break down, my tears and cry will be so sad that the tears will run down like water pipe. So, my family when they see me crying without stop in front of them..they think I was being so emotional for no reason and I dont have solid reason to do so. Thus, they think I over react and being so selfish for crying so bad..They give advice but they seems to be like more of a scold and not motivating and comforting enough..They dont know how to ask nicely, to sit down and ask me face to face calmly. I feel so sad to realize this more than ever..Even worse I got scolded with fierce face for crying so much without any effort to try understand and ask what is wrong with me calmly..I hope that when I have my children later on, I will be to try to ask them with care without the blaming game or make me feel more guilty of crying in front of them at home. And then when you ask, you must ask with concerns..slowly and patiently try to understands them..I guess it is a skill that someone need to learn but I was sad and have to accept that this is my family. We cannot do anything to change someone's attitude and I have to acknowledge my family weaknesses. Any issues that you have especially in lost hope..they cannot do anything. We always think that when we care for someone that person will know and care about us..I was truly dam* wrong..No one will comfort you any better than what you had now..So, brace yourself..Your suffering must not show to them because they are also do not how to handle ppl that have give up or lost hope.Only Allah s.w.t knows. I know that this is a lesson to me to keep on and redha dgnNya..And I must learn on how to stay strong and keep on trusting on Him..And i learned that and hope I will know how to comfort my children in the future..Aminn..

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