Mis Say-So

 I found this from Quora digest email and it is an eye-opener for me and a reminder to myself to keep on moving forward for progress. I must learn to do something that I like. If you love your work, it shouldn't feel like work. Q: How did Elon Musk learn so much? He once explained how he does it and his reasoning is very sound. It went something like this…. Elon how can you accomplish so much so fast? "Most people work 40 hours / week. I work 100 hours / week. That means what it takes a regular person 1 year, it takes me roughly 4 months to complete. Simply put I'm just working a lot more and learning at a much faster rate than my competition". ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I’m pretty sure that by “work”, he also means reading and thinking in the evenings. It’s alarming how much time we waste watching TV and doing other meaningless things to pass the time.  I’ve got this university text-book here on cryptography, i...

Currently, I don't feel that I'm worthy of anything. Sometimes I wonder if I had made a bad decision in my life.When you are at the stage of your life where you live depending on someone else's money is so hurtful and painful. For almost 2 years, I have been a stay at home mum. The feeling of unworthiness for almost 2 years is something that I must remember for the rest of my life. No money to eat, no money to pay for the car, 3 months default for insurance and lastly the help from others are not going to be forever. It is a lesson for me to never stop learning and upgrading myself.Despite everything is good, I must make myself a step ahead continuously. Now, it feels like I have to start all over again from the beginning. Because to accept that my degree and working experience does not help me to get a good salary wise decent job is a painful truth that I have to fathom. I did wish my life will be better but I soon realized that it will never get better. I knew tha...

It never occured to me that I will be a housewife for such a long time. Well, there's no one else to be blame but me. I don't know for how long I will still be stay at home mum, but I hope I can get the best of it. Because I still can't find it beneficial for me especially in terms of financial. I don't know for how long I can cope with no income in my life.Nobody knows that deep down I'm lost and wasted. I'm so lost.

We have come to a new year..2015 has been about my baby and wishing him the best life now and after.A year passed so fast and I will be like "I feel like that event just happened 6 months back". But actually it was a year ago. 2015 full of commitment, tight up and hopefully I have some break for myself this new year. But who knows, coz there are still a lot things to do. Plan, plan and plan...Let's rollout ! Hehe... Happy 2016 =) Credit: Raw Poetry@deviantart

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to myself, happy birthday to me...as of now, no one sings me a birthday song..so I sing by myself..huhu..actually, since I was a teenager the celebration is only just a dinner with no gift.Haha..We don't really celebrate.I envy with people who always have balloons, cake and gift everytime on their birthday.Haha..perhaps its just not a pratice since my early teenager- on my side. Anyway nobody cares..haha.The world keeps on spinning anyway.Just a day passing by. ☺ Cheers

Yearning for excitement, yearning for something fun and new, yearning for a holiday..But no money.Haih..dont know when I can go on a long vacation...I wish i can go on a holiday somewhere I can just enjoy, have fun and care-free..I guess I have to celebrate in a small way by my own (in a discreet way) this year and who knows if it will be the same in the future. What you give you will get them in the future..People said happy people are the ones who make the best of what they had. But I couldn't help to longing and dream about this..Life has been hectic and I find it more hard to find a time for my own fun time..without any rush or schedule.. I need to sleep on time and wake up on time so that my day will be well spent. If not everything will be late..I know this is what a mother will have to bear with but I also have come to a realization that my life is boring..Ahaks. The end.

"No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of worry can change the future." - Saidina Umar bin Al-Khattab I have my utmost admiration towards one of Rasulullah Saw Sahabat. I love his principle in life and his bravery.That is why his quotes are so wise to me.

I'm so sad today..I know this blog will not be read by anyone from my family. Even if it does, it will be way too long already..It is all out and clear as of today that none of my family members are good in comforting and motivating someone who is sad or has given up their hopes. I know I have not write here for a long time.Well, this time I have no one to talk to..Since it involves internal issue and family member, I just want to write here.. Nobody understands that I am a person who likes to keep it to myself and I will break down teruk2 when I finally give up..When I say break down, my tears and cry will be so sad that the tears will run down like water pipe. So, my family when they see me crying without stop in front of them..they think I was being so emotional for no reason and I dont have solid reason to do so. Thus, they think I over react and being so selfish for crying so bad..They give advice but they seems to be like more of a scold and not motivating and comforting eno...

As long as I can remember, Disney has never fail to create a great movie - a really feel good movie with a whole lot of good values that we can learn. Even the soundtracks made by Disney since I was little were among the best ever. I still remember when I was in Standard 6, the first cassette that I wish to buy was "Disney Love Hits". It features all top soundtracks from Beauty & The Beast to Tarzan. Until now, the songs are great to listen to because nowadays, we can never listen to songs like that anymore. Slow, inspiring and magical. Today, I got the chance to see Real Steel again. Yes, I've seen this movie before but this time, I really took the effort to think about the values and emotions that the movie brings. When I watch this movie, it reminds me again the reason why Disney movies are so great to me. It always teaches us all the good values that make us humans and to have the life to be worthwhile. So called a feel-good movie.The story line uplift the valu...

It's true when new year is just another day..As of today, my world has been busy, busy and actually I still lack of vacation..dreaming to go somewhere new. Because of the expected change to come in my life, I still has not step up to meet all those deadlines or targets..I'm so weak..I was wondering whether it was lazy, easily tired or  not enough motivation or.. willingness to be good...time is always not enough..but likewise people will tell that you have poor time management and etc..usual reasons..But its not just about manage..it's about the ability to keep on going..sometimes we planned but we still not able to do it.. Image credited to addy-ack@Deviantart

My inability to be alone has proved to me again.We always think people will be there for you when they need you but now I think that is not true. Even the fact that it's beyond their capability to be there for me, I still couldn't accept. But I guess this is the final straw. It is confirm that the statement of people will be there for you when you need them is not valid everytime. The world is not cruel but that's just the way it is. P/s: Thank you for showing me that now,well at least now rather than later. Walk alone... Image credited to Muffinka013@Deviantart

This is a that song Ryan Tedder (lead member from One Republic) created for his son. Love this song since the words for the lyrics are wonderful. The song that we when we hear it, it can lift you up..Sing-a-long song and you motivates you to own your life. I bought this album few months back, and for me I like to listen to this one the most. :)

Diriwayatkan setelah kewafatan Rasulullah Saw, Sayidina Abu Bakar berazam utk melakukan segala sunnah baginda semasa baginda hidup. Setelah melakukan semuanya, beliau brtanya kpd anaknya Aishah, " Adakah lg sunnah kekasihku itu yg belum sy tunaikan?" Aisyah menjawab," Hanya 1 lg ayahku, Rasulullah Saw pada setiap pagi akan pergi ke pasar & menyuap makan kepada seorg Yahudi buta di sana." Lantas, Saiyidina Abu Bakar menuju ke pasar dan menyuap si Yahudi buta itu makan. Lelaki Yahudi itu seperti selalu, tidak henti-henti menghina & mengutuk Rasulullah Saw, sedangkan dia tidak mengetahui bahawa selama ini lelaki yg dia hina itu menyuap makannya setiap hari. Dengan kerinduan Sayidina Abu Bakar trhadap Nabi Saw masih belum pudar, berasa begitu hiba & tidak mampu menahan air matanya mengenangkan bagaiman sabarnya baginda menyuap makan lelaki ini yang sentiasa menghinanya setiap hari. Namun, Sayidina Abu Bakar hanya mampi menahan kesedihannya. Tiba- tiba, si Ya...

As we have entered a new year - 1435H, I would like to share a tip on how to achieve any goals that you want to. I came across this article about how to have a new habit. The author said he made consistent  progress  towards my goals, not by setting a deadline for my performance but by sticking to a schedule. In other words, plan and stick with the schedule. This is the part that I find very interesting esp. the 2nd last sentence ; "Productive and successful people  practice  the things that are important to them on a consistent basis.  The best weightlifters are in the gym at the same time every week. The best writers are sitting down at the keyboard every day. And this same principle applies to the best leaders, parents, managers, musicians, and doctors. The strange thing is that for top performers, it’s not about the performance, it’s about the continual practice. The focus is on doing the action, not on achieving  X  goal by a cer...

" The intention to stare at your love for a long period of time in public, in front of everybody - just can't be fulfilled and it is only because I'm afraid of people will think that I'm crazy. But they just don't know the awe and love that I felt just to see his face." ~There's some kind of magnetic force but I have to repel it with the time constraint that we have to meet... Image credit to EliseEnchanted@Deviantart.com

   Salam Maal Hijrah 1435 to all Muslims..A new year has come knocking on our door and it is here now. Let us pray that we all remains united in Islam and become stronger with our faith to Him, Allah SWT. Let us put more trust to Him and let Him be the only place we seek for request & help. Amin Ya Rabbal A'la Min... Image credit to tyt2000@deviantart

When you realized that you are stupid and not that clever enough, it is something that I will have to remember for the rest of my life. After all this time, I'm just one stupid girl who knows nothing. As a human being that's what I am. Nothing but a spec of dust. There's no point pretending you know everything but it's not worth in the long run or on the end. You will regret the things that you've done because of your 'lack of knowledge' but we have to move on. Keeping the realization at the back of my mind.

As life feels lonelier by the day, I  should sit down morw often on my own, without tv or etc and just write and think.Sometimes our dependent towards people had caused you to hurt but at the end of the day it is entirely your sins that causes you this and it is actually nobody's fault to be blamed. That's how Allah swt had planned. And it is true that we put our happiness at other people's hand.My birthday went on just like normal and it is just one calm day. September almost coming to an end but since August, I had felt many departures of people leaving, out from the circles of my life..it's true when they said the constant thing about life is Change..People will come and leave..We have to learn to accept and totally accept what is destined for us.

We are here, now in the month of Syawal. Ramadhan has passed and another year to go for it. Time is crucial.As we grow up, we learn more and more things that are valuable to our life. We realized that we have spent our time on so many wasted stuff..It's become clearer to me that the time we spent on someone is much more valuable than the time we spent on materialistic stuffs..People need help, they always need help. But it is always seems that we, or specifically me, doesn't have enough time on our working days. I also realized how ironic it is, when someone that (seems to) have everything like money, wealth, houses, cars and etc, actually doesn't have anything.While a person who (seems to) have nothing, own a small piece of wealth, actually owns and have everything in the end..And like what everybody says, it is the end that matters.

On the surface people can know why he/she is not happy based on recent events. People will think that we are sad because of those events. But actually we are sad because we have triggered the old same scar or burden that we had before..sadness or failure that has not been resolved. Deep down further, if there is an old scar deep down beneath those skin, and no one can know from the surface.. that can make you feel sad or more sad again, then it is only in Allah SWT knowledge. I mean, that is really sad right..old scar and no one knows it. Argh, what a tiring thoughts. Wondering why they are people behave the way they did and caused us to be emotionally and physically tired.. Should we teach them a lesson because of their repetitively lack of empathy or concerns? We suffers and create depressions when we face it alone.. Image credit @Deviantart