Worthiness
Currently, I don't feel that I'm worthy of anything. Sometimes I wonder if I had made a bad decision in my life.When you are at the stage of your life where you live depending on someone else's money is so hurtful and painful. For almost 2 years, I have been a stay at home mum. The feeling of unworthiness for almost 2 years is something that I must remember for the rest of my life. No money to eat, no money to pay for the car, 3 months default for insurance and lastly the help from others are not going to be forever. It is a lesson for me to never stop learning and upgrading myself.Despite everything is good, I must make myself a step ahead continuously. Now, it feels like I have to start all over again from the beginning. Because to accept that my degree and working experience does not help me to get a good salary wise decent job is a painful truth that I have to fathom. I did wish my life will be better but I soon realized that it will never get better. I knew tha...