Mis Say-So

As life feels lonelier by the day, I  should sit down morw often on my own, without tv or etc and just write and think.Sometimes our dependent towards people had caused you to hurt but at the end of the day it is entirely your sins that causes you this and it is actually nobody's fault to be blamed. That's how Allah swt had planned. And it is true that we put our happiness at other people's hand.My birthday went on just like normal and it is just one calm day. September almost coming to an end but since August, I had felt many departures of people leaving, out from the circles of my life..it's true when they said the constant thing about life is Change..People will come and leave..We have to learn to accept and totally accept what is destined for us.

We are here, now in the month of Syawal. Ramadhan has passed and another year to go for it. Time is crucial.As we grow up, we learn more and more things that are valuable to our life. We realized that we have spent our time on so many wasted stuff..It's become clearer to me that the time we spent on someone is much more valuable than the time we spent on materialistic stuffs..People need help, they always need help. But it is always seems that we, or specifically me, doesn't have enough time on our working days. I also realized how ironic it is, when someone that (seems to) have everything like money, wealth, houses, cars and etc, actually doesn't have anything.While a person who (seems to) have nothing, own a small piece of wealth, actually owns and have everything in the end..And like what everybody says, it is the end that matters.

On the surface people can know why he/she is not happy based on recent events. People will think that we are sad because of those events. But actually we are sad because we have triggered the old same scar or burden that we had before..sadness or failure that has not been resolved. Deep down further, if there is an old scar deep down beneath those skin, and no one can know from the surface.. that can make you feel sad or more sad again, then it is only in Allah SWT knowledge. I mean, that is really sad right..old scar and no one knows it. Argh, what a tiring thoughts. Wondering why they are people behave the way they did and caused us to be emotionally and physically tired.. Should we teach them a lesson because of their repetitively lack of empathy or concerns? We suffers and create depressions when we face it alone.. Image credit @Deviantart

Alone..doing everything alone the same thing for several times is really depressing..I don't know why..are you prepared to be alone if it happens? If you are destined to be alone for the rest of your life, wouldn't it be a burden for you to think it as a depressing thing for your entire life? Being the loner of the siblings, I'm having the same experience that both of my parents have..now I know why they fear to be alone..I admire people who is a single mother..I admire their mental and emotional strength..now, I'm sitting here crying and depressed to go out alone again to the same restaurant..that I just went yesterday..wow..I cannot define that..maybe lack of courage, no determination like the single mother..Yes. Image credit to Kayleigh June@deviantart 

I would like to take this opportunity to tell someone that I love dearly, Wan Khaldun Ghazali, that you have bring so much joy in my life and I love you from the bottom of my heart...I love to see you happy and your sincerity in loving me with all your heart makes me cry for having you in my life.. Nobody wants to understand me as much as you do..and nobody can makes me laugh that hard naturally...I do hope we able to achieve what we have dream of and I know you are such a gentleman at heart. And I couldn't ask for more.. Nobody is perfect but somehow you make the imperfections perfect. I don't know how you did it but somehow you did. Thank you. I know you have done your best. Thank you for all that you have given to me..They are times that it might seems I did not appreciate it but I do very much indeed from the bottom of my heart.. I love you Wan, I like to see you always happy in your life... :) because you have bring so much to mine. =D Image credit to Eltasia@D...

For the past few months, many events have take place and many emotions have been felt. Nowadays people mostly don't have feelings or care when they deal with others. They can easily hurt you, as if they don't think when they want to talk..That is so weird. I have the chance to realize that life is a test. Life is purely a test from Allah SWT. We was sent to earth to take His test.It is nothing but a test. So, when people said do not take life seriously. They are wrong. They are totally wrong. If life is a test, we must excel wisely. That is where the ilmu comes..How strong are we in seeking and acquire knowledge about Him or Islam as a whole?  When we think of the heaven and the earth, the earth is Allah SWT gift for us - mankind to use wisely, spend time wisely, appreciate things and use wisely... When you look back, the most precious time on earth is when we spend our time with someone else. Playing ball with your son, having a laugh with your daughter or even riding a bi...

 “Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” - Rumi There are so many types of love. Love to your special someone, love to your children, love to your mother/father, love to your family members, siblings and to those around you. At first, I don't understand what is the quote about. Then I think of unconditional love. This love must come from a person who never creates any barrier against it. I noticed that there are so many barriers that we all have created for each of these type of love. I think that the generation before us has so many love inside of them compared to the current/upcoming generation. I saw a documentary on WWII, knowing all those men go and fight for their country without any questions or expecting any recognition on their sacrifice.Their inner strength and self values is so high. After WWII ends, they resume to their normal life, living like nothing ever happened. I ...