Truth about people

I'm so sad today..I know this blog will not be read by anyone from my family. Even if it does, it will be way too long already..It is all out and clear as of today that none of my family members are good in comforting and motivating someone who is sad or has given up their hopes. I know I have not write here for a long time.Well, this time I have no one to talk to..Since it involves internal issue and family member, I just want to write here.. Nobody understands that I am a person who likes to keep it to myself and I will break down teruk2 when I finally give up..When I say break down, my tears and cry will be so sad that the tears will run down like water pipe. So, my family when they see me crying without stop in front of them..they think I was being so emotional for no reason and I dont have solid reason to do so. Thus, they think I over react and being so selfish for crying so bad..They give advice but they seems to be like more of a scold and not motivating and comforting enough..They dont know how to ask nicely, to sit down and ask me face to face calmly. I feel so sad to realize this more than ever..Even worse I got scolded with fierce face for crying so much without any effort to try understand and ask what is wrong with me calmly..I hope that when I have my children later on, I will be to try to ask them with care without the blaming game or make me feel more guilty of crying in front of them at home. And then when you ask, you must ask with concerns..slowly and patiently try to understands them..I guess it is a skill that someone need to learn but I was sad and have to accept that this is my family. We cannot do anything to change someone's attitude and I have to acknowledge my family weaknesses. Any issues that you have especially in lost hope..they cannot do anything. We always think that when we care for someone that person will know and care about us..I was truly dam* wrong..No one will comfort you any better than what you had now..So, brace yourself..Your suffering must not show to them because they are also do not how to handle ppl that have give up or lost hope.Only Allah s.w.t knows. I know that this is a lesson to me to keep on and redha dgnNya..And I must learn on how to stay strong and keep on trusting on Him..And i learned that and hope I will know how to comfort my children in the future..Aminn..


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